Me.

Is it sad that I am writing my second blog on the same day, an hour later than my first? Yes. Yes it is. But, I guess I just want to tell people about myself.

As of now, I am 26 years old. And I feel old. I don't go out dancing or go to concerts as often as I used to. I don't do stupid shit for no reason much anymore. Sometimes I will still get the itch to drive around blasting TV themes from my car, videotaping people's reactions, but it rarely actually happens anymore. Have I lost my childish idiocy? Dear God, I hope not!

Next topic: I moved to Los Angeles almost 5 years ago. Holy crap. To me that is a long time. I was 22, penniless, (oh wait, I STILL have no money) and naive. Very naive. I was so scared. I moved into my friend's extra bedroom in Sherman Oaks. They had lived there for a year, and helped my parents to push me to leave the nest. I remember I decided to make the move because my friend, Jerry, who lives at this awesome condo that I moved into, was working at Denny's in Burbank, and helped me get a job there. I asked the manager to give me week to get my "affairs" in order, and then packed what I could fit in my car, and made the 4 hour drive.

I have to say that the friends I moved in with, saved my ass. It was nice already having known Jerry, Corey, and Patty for a few years before we all moved here. They charged me cheap rent, since I was making--get this--$146 a week at Denny's! Oh my, how I made it through coming here with $200 in the bank, and making that pitiful amount, I will never know. But like I said, it made it much easier knowing I had people here to help and give me support. I will talk about my moving adventures in another post...

What else? I act. I sing. I came here because I wanted to flourish in those areas. As far as flourishing goes, well, I don't think I have done too much of that. I have been working toward it as much as possible. I have more of a theatre background, and less film experience so it is, at times, hard to break into doing more films. But I have done a few small ones. As of late, I am unemployed (which I will also talk about later, that's a doozy of a story) so I get to auditon a lot more, thank God. I think I do pretty well with my small film and theatre gigs, but I really need to start making money for doing them. That is my goal before my unemployment runs out...sorry, I am laughing at myself, because I sound like such a loser. But I figure, hell, I am making more money on unemployment checks than I would be at some other shitty job, making minimum wage. I was making very good money at my last job, so I get a decent amount of unemployment. Why not look for more gigs than actual jobs? I need to make something happen in the area that I want to be in for the rest of my life. Now I am not saying that I am not looking for regular jobs, I just haven't heard back from anyone. So I look for a lot more gigs, and I am looking for an agent, since I have the time everyday now. Being unemployed is tough, but I can't let it get the best of me. And believe me, I almost let it do that when it first happened, but I have changed that fear into agression for the most part, and it makes me feel a lot better. I am probably rambling...so tomorrow, I will continue this...